Pandemic thoughts
when the world as we know it shuts down.
Nothing makes you feel more small and alone than a global pandemic.
Families band together, couples pull each other close. And as it feels like the world is ending in this new normal we are all in...
I couldn’t help but wonder who I am, what kind of legacy would I leave if this was it? Would I die alone? Because that’s all I feel right now, alone. I feel strong and brave and okay, but damn do I wish I had someone to comfort me. Someone to hug me and tell me it’s all going to be okay.
As humans it is innate in us to want connection, crave love and acceptance. Was I the one avoiding connection? Chasing only people I knew would never really love me? Was I that afraid of being seen? The fear of loss can outweigh the pure joy of letting someone loving you. Because what if they leave? What does that say about me?? That I’m somehow not worthy of being loved? I tell myself over and over again that I am enough. Breathe in, breathe out. And remember that you are whole now. Without anyone’s love or approval.
